Transition

This week has been a time of transition.

It was the first day of autumn earlier this week. A new season on its way. Time to pack away the summer dresses and get out the cosy jumper dresses, tunics and leggings. As much as I love summer, there is something comforting about those clothes.

It is also a time of transition because Saturday marks six months since Hugo’s death.

We humans like to mark the passage of time. In a funny way, it feels strange marking the six month anniversary because it’s not like anything will change or can change. It’s not like I’ll suddenly be ‘better’ because the calendar says it’s a certain date. I’ve given up hoping I’ll wake up one morning to discover it was all an awful nightmare; I smile more; and there are more good days than bad, so there has been progress.

I also don’t like marking it because it’s another day further away from Hugo, and another day hurtling towards the awful first milestones like the first Christmas, his first birthday, and the first anniversary of his death.

But it is a useful marker to take stock of everything that has happened – and consider what the next six months might bring. I don’t know what will happen next, but I can only hope the next six months can surely not be as bad as the previous six.

 

The Reading Residence

20 thoughts on “Transition

  1. thereadingresidence says:

    I think using the milestone as a time to reflect back and see that the next 6 months can only be better is very powerful. You’re so very strong and inspirational, and I hope for happy times ahead for you x Thanks for sharing with #WotW

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  2. thepumpingmama says:

    I don’t think there’s any way they can be. If there’s any justice in the world then the only way is up. I’m praying that it is.

    I love Autumn too. Snuggly clothes, comfy clothes. Clothes you can hide in.

    Peace, strength and love to you.

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  3. Mummy Tries says:

    You write so beautifully considering what you are going through lovely lady. It’s good to hear that you have more good days than bad now. Here’s hoping there are lots of smiles to look forward to over the next six months xxx

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